I'm so happy. It's actually unusual. My mum suprised me with tickets to see Wicked today. My Dad acually kept a secret from me, I screamed when she gave me the tickets. Also staying in a posh hotel (the same one we stayed in last time) for two nights, so we can go shopping and do other annoying tourist things. Eeeee two weeks on Monday, can't WAIT!

Working two jobs at the moment, but it's ok. I'm not finding it too bad, and I have so much money I don't really know what to do with it, so that's uplifting. I'm having a very busy summer so far, but It's good. I'm having fun.

Seeing Harry Potter tomarrow night. I may wear a wizards hat, because when it comes to Harry Potter, I am a dork, there is no denying it.

Also got a message from Katie today, which has me smiling like a loon. Not only is she comming to Exeter college after all, she's moving back to Moreton; I'm getting my neighbour back!! How awesome. I don't know exactly where she's moving, but hearing that cheered me up so much.

Soooo, I am happy. I have a lot to look foward to. And september is going to be amazing.

xx

Place an x in any that you have done:
(x) smoked a cigarette
() smoked a cigar
(x) been high
(x) been drunk
() made out with a member of the same sex
(x) been in love
(x) been dumped
(x) dumped someone
(x) shoplifted
(x) been fired
() been in a fist fight
(x) snuck out of my parent's house
(x) had feelings for someone who didnt have them back
() been arrested
() made out with a stranger
() gone on a blind date
(x) lied to a friend
(x) had a crush on a teacher
(x) skipped school
() slept with a co-worker
(x) seen someone die (animals count as someones)
() had a crush on one of your internet friends
() been to Canada
() been to Mexico
(x) been on a plane
() thrown up in a bar
(x) set a part of myself on fire
(x) eaten sushi
() been snowboarding
() been moshing/crowd surfing at a show
() been in an abusive relationship
(x) taken painkillers
(x) love someone or miss someone right now
(x) laid on your back and watched cloud shapes go by
(x) made a snow angel
(x) had a tea party
(x) flown a kite
(x) built a sand castle
(x) gone puddle jumping
(x) played dress up
(x) jumped into a pile of leaves
(x) gone sledding
(x) cheated while playing a game
(x) been lonely
(x) fallen asleep at work/school
() used a fake id
(x) watched the sun set
() felt an earthquake
(x) touched a snake
(x) slept beneath the stars
(x) been tickled
() been robbed
(x) been misunderstood
(x) pet a reindeer/goat
(x) won a contest
() ran a red light
() been suspended from school
() been in a car accident
() had braces
(x) felt like an outcast
(x) eaten a whole pint of ice cream in one night
(x) had deja vu
(x) danced in the moonlight
(x) hated the way you look
() witnessed a crime
(x) questioned your heart
(x) been obsessed with post-it notes
() squished barefoot through the mud
(x) been lost
(x) been to the opposite side of the country
(x) swam in the ocean
(x) felt like dying
(x) cried yourself to sleep
(x) played cops and robbers
(x) recently colored with crayons/colored pencils/markers
(x) sung karaoke
() paid for a meal with only coins
(x) done something you told yourself you wouldn't
(x) made prank phone calls
(x) laughed until some kind of beverage came out of your nose
(x) caught a snowflake on your tongue
(x) danced in the rain
(x) written a letter to Santa Claus
(x) been kissed under a mistletoe
() watched the sun set with someone you care about
(x) blown bubbles
() made a bonfire on the beach
() crashed a party
(x) gone rollerskating
() had a wish come true
() humped a monkey
(x) worn pearls
() jumped off a bridge
(x) ate dog/cat food
() told a complete stranger you loved them
(x) kissed a mirror
(x) sang in the shower
(x) have a black dress
(x) had a dream that you married someone
(x) glued your hand to something
() got your tongue stuck to a flag pole
(x) kissed a fish
(x) worn the opposite sexes clothes
() been a cheerleader
(x) sat on a roof top
(x)screamed at the top of your lungs
(x) done a one-handed cartwheel
() talked on the phone for more than 6 hours
(x) stayed up all night
() didn't take a shower for a week
(x) pick and ate an apple right off the tree
(x) climbed a tree
(x) had a tree house/club house
() are scared to watch scary movies alone
(x) believe in ghosts
() worn a really ugly outfit to school just to see what others say
() gone streaking
() played knock-a-door-run
(x) played chicken
() been pushed into a pool with all your clothes on
() been told you're hot by a complete stranger
() broken a bone
() caught a fish then ate it
(x) caught a butterfly
(x) laughed so hard you cried
(x) cried so hard you laughed
() mooned/flashed someone
(x) had someone moon/flash you
(x) have a Britney Spears CD
(x) forgotten someone's name
() slept naked
() French braided someones hair
() gone skinny dippin in a pool

So my Dad apologised to me, which is good, because I was actually starting to believe him when he said he wished I was never born. Not really a good thing.

I have to get up early tomarrow :( I have to work. Suppose it's not a bad thing, I loooove the money. And I get payed this week. Whoop whoop. But I am doing five shifts this week, which I've never done before. I bet I'll be dead by this time next week.

Well. My Dad told me I'm fucking useless. All evening he's been ranting, saying how useless I am and that he'll be free of me soon. He also said that his life would have been so much better without me. Pretty much his exact words.

I think he's actually right for once.

So yeah, my drama group had a bit of a fight of Thursday night. It was understandable, because we're the only group who got to stay the same for our final piece, so we've spent a lot of time together, and there's a lot of tension. But I'm so stressed right now, I have so much work to do, and there's nothing more annoying than being stuck in school with a drama group that don't want to work, because I could have used that time so much more constructivley. And it's like that every rehersal, we don't do anything, and it gives me more stress, because i've got less time to do work. Excuse me for wanting to pass my GCSE's. So I started to write my essay, because no one was doing anything, and I thought that I could use the time more constructivley. Haha, drama queen Hannah sees a way to get some more damn attention, by starting a fight. Actually, I found it quite funny at first, because for her, it's either a chance to have a fight, or a chance to not do any work. Fine, that's fine, it doesn't really matter. But now she's telling people that I slapped her. She's always been a liar, but I had no idea she was this full of shit. And I have double drama tomarrow with her. Great. Can I just die, right now? Please God?

Sooo, I'm at my cousins house for the night, looking after her, so would you do me a favour and click on this link:

http://friends.stardoll.com/r/7830f81a368e102aa621

If you do this, she'll get lots of star dollars and can dress her dolls up. She will love you forever. Her name is Emma, and she's sooooo cute.

Laters x x

I hate Sundays. I can never enjoy the day, because I know I have to go to school the next day. Still, every song ends, there's no reason why you can't enjoy it. Had to go into school today though because Wickers went crazy at everyone on Friday, because deadline for compositions is Thursday and hardly anyone in our group had finished. I finished mine today, so yeah, I feel a bit better about it. Less stress.

My Dad told me yesterday that he wanted to call me Octavia, but my mum protested. That would have been so awesome.

Laters x x

Leaving soon. Less than an hour. Byeeeeeee xx and the new laptop is shiny

I have massive amounts of coursework to do this weekend, and my fucking laptop is broken. I have to use my Dad's computer whenever I can, but It's still for not nearly as long as I need a computer for. I've ordered a new laptop, but it's still not going to be here for ages, so look who's going to fall behind on coursework. Grrrrrr. And I've constantly got so much work I haven't even had time to propely learn my big scenes for Med, and, oh yeah, lines were supposed to be learnt by last Sunday, and I have a rehersal tomarrow. Like I'm going to be able to find time under all this shitty coursework. I cannot wait for September, how does the school honestly think we'll be able to keep on top of it all, I mean, we're doing coursework in subjects that mean nothing to us and are not going to help us in the future, and it's not as like we have free periods to help us get it done. I was supposed to be having a party tonight, but I had to cancel it :(. Mainly because it would have been too much short notice, but also because I have so much fricking work! I'm not bitter, or going crazy, it's just all becoming a bit too much, seriously.

I have really short hair. It's weird. I'm not sure if It suits me or not. Oh well.
And this time next week I'll be in NY. That's like the only good thing I have going on right now. Well, apart from moving, but that's not until May, so I'm finding it quite hard to get into that.

so it was my birthday yesterday. It was actually really cool, on my bus made me choclate cake. And then people suprised me with a card they all signed, which really made my day. Now i'm still all smiley. New york in 2 weeks today! We started listing everywhere we're going to go over lunch with jill today, and it's going to be awesome, really awesome. So this was just a quick bloggy blog to express my rare happiness, have to go now, as am going shopping. Fun!!!
Bye guys x x x

So I've had a crappy couple of days, how has everyone else been?
I think I want to drop drama, because I always get stuck with a crappy group that neeeeever turn up to rehersal and my grades are suffering as a result. This is a subject I'm supposed to be good at, I'd rather quit now then suffer the humiliation of getting a crap grade. My media teacher makes no effort to disguise the fact that he blatantly has favourites, well actually he likes everyone in the class exept from me, so I think I'm going to fail media as well. I won't drop it though. because that's exactly what he wants. All in all, I'm so sick of being invisable, what the hell have I got to do?
The cherry on top of the cake of course is that Dad had to go to Surrey today, and on the bus I got a voicemail saying that he was in an accident. I couldn't get through to him, so I was sooooo worries. He's ok though, apparently a car crashed into the back of him, but he's not badly hurt. Now I'm going to an awards ceremony, sooo bye x xx

So yeah, having a BIG party for my 16th hopefully if I can think of something to do. Should be awesome, as the MED resedential is on my actual birthday weekend I'm having my party the week before, which means my mother will be on holiday and my dad is letting me do something big and fantastic. Whoooo!! Now I just need to think of something to do! Any ideas? Anyone?

hello LJ.

HaHaHaHa

bye LJ xxx

Elaine downloaded the green wing special as it was shown in Australia (?) before it was shown here so we got to watch it early........ and oh my god!!!!!!!!!

I may cry.......

Celebrity Big Brother tonight!!! Sad, me, noooooooo.

Now to find a way out of climbing. Any suggestions?

So I have total mind block! Bah,!!!!! Stupid deadlines and scenes to write, and I am the biggest procrastinator ever. Right now I am watching old episodes of Americas Next Top Model and sniffing my nail glue. The deadline is today, I should have written more than the scene name!!!!!

haha this made me feel so much better

http://www.elfyourself.com/?userid=262f8bdcccb1adc91cfddc3G07010112

haha

Allegedly if you've seen over 85 movies, you have no life. Mark the ones you've seen. There are 239 movies on this list. Copy this list, go to your own livejournal account, paste. Then, put x's next to the movies you've seen, add them up, change the header adding your number, and click post at the bottom. Have fun!

() Rocky Horror Picture Show
(x) Grease
(x) Pirates of the Caribbean
() Pirates of the Caribbean 2: Dead Man's Chest
() Boondock Saints
() Fight Club
() Starsky and Hutch
() Neverending Story
() Blazing Saddles
() Airplane
Total: 2

() The Princess Bride
() AnchorMan
(x) Napoleon Dynamite
() Labyrinth
(x) Saw
(x) Saw II
() White Noise
() White Oleander
(x) Anger Management
(x) 50 First Dates
(x) The Princess Diaries
(x) The Princess Diaries 2: Royal Engagement
Total so far: 9

(x) Scream
(x) Scream 2
(x) Scream 3
(x) Scary Movie
(x) Scary Movie 2
(x) Scary Movie 3
(x) Scary Movie 4
(x) American Pie
(x) American Pie 2
(x) American Wedding
() American Pie Band Camp
Total so far: 19

(x) Harry Potter 1
(x) Harry Potter 2
() Harry Potter 3
() Harry Potter 4
() Resident Evil 1
() Resident Evil 2
() The Wedding Singer
() Little Black Book
() The Village
(x) Lilo & Stitch
Total so far: 22

(x) Finding Nemo
() Finding Neverland
() Signs
() The Grinch
() Texas Chainsaw Massacre
() Texas Chainsaw Massacre: The Beginning
(x) White Chicks
(x) Butterfly Effect
(x) 13 Going on 30
() I, Robot
() Robots
Total so far: 26

() Dodgeball: A True Underdog Story
() Universal Soldier
() Lemony Snicket: A Series Of Unfortunate Events
(x) Along Came Polly
() Deep Impact
(x) KingPin
(x) Never Been Kissed
(x) Meet The Parents
(x)Meet the Fockers
() Eight Crazy Nights
() Joe Dirt
() KING KONG
Total so far: 31

(x) A Cinderella Story
() The Terminal
(x) The Lizzie McGuire Movie
(x) Passport to Paris
(x) Dumb & Dumber
() Dumber & Dumberer
(x) Final Destination
(x) Final Destination 2
(x) Final Destination 3
(x) Halloween
(x) The Ring
(x) The Ring 2
() Surviving X-MAS
(x) Flubber
Total so far: 42

() Harold & Kumar Go To White Castle
(x) Practical Magic
(x) Chicago
() Ghost Ship
(x) From Hell
() Hellboy
() Secret Window
() I Am Sam
() The Whole Nine Yards
() The Whole Ten Yards
Total so far: 45

(x) The Day After Tomorrow
(x) Child's Play
(x) Seed of Chucky
(x) Bride of Chucky
(x) Ten Things I Hate About You
(x) Just Married
() Gothika
(x) Nightmare on Elm Street
() Sixteen Candles
(x) Remember the Titans
() Coach Carter
(x) The Grudge
() The Grudge 2
(x) The Mask
() Son Of The Mask
Total so far: 55

() Bad Boys
() Bad Boys 2
() Joy Ride
() Lucky Number Slevin
() Ocean's Eleven (New and Old)
() Ocean's Twelve
() Bourne Identity
() Bourne Supremecy
() Lone Star
() Bedazzled
() Predator I
() Predator II
(x) The Fog
(x) Ice Age
() Ice Age 2: The Meltdown
() Curious George
Total so far: 57

() Independence Day
() Cujo
() A Bronx Tale
() Darkness Falls
() Christine
(x) ET
() Children of the Corn
() My Bosses Daughter
(x) Maid in Manhattan
(x) War of the Worlds
() Rush Hour
() Rush Hour 2
Total so far: 60

() Best Bet
(x) How to Lose a Guy in 10 Days
(x) She's All That
() Calendar Girls
() Sideways
() Mars Attacks
() Event Horizon
() Ever After
(x) Wizard of Oz
() Forrest Gump
() Big Trouble in Little China
() The Terminator
() The Terminator 2
() The Terminator 3
Total so far: 63

() X-Men
() X2
() X-3
(x) Spider-Man
(x) Spider-Man 2
() Sky High
(x) Jeepers Creepers
(x) Jeepers Creepers 2
() Catch Me If You Can
(x) The Little Mermaid
(x) Freaky Friday
() Reign of Fire
() The Skulls
() Cruel Intentions
() Cruel Intentions 2
(x) The Hot Chick
(x) Shrek
(x) Shrek 2
Total so far: 72

(x) Swimfan
(x) Miracle on 34th street
(x) Old School
(x) The Notebook
() K-Pax
() Krippendorf's Tribe
(x) A Walk to Remember
() Ice Castles
(x) Boogeyman
(x) The 40-year-old Virgin
Total so far: 78

() Lord of the Rings Fellowship of the Ring
() Lord of the Rings The Two Towers
() Lord of the Rings Return Of the King
() Indiana Jones and the Raiders of the Lost Ark
(x) Indiana Jones and the Temple of Doom
() Indiana Jones and the Last Crusade
Total so far: 79

() BASEketball
(x) Hostel
() Waiting for Guffman
() House of 1000 Corpses
() Devils Rejects
(x) Elf
() Highlander
() Mothman Prophecies
() American History X
() Three
Total so Far: 81

(x) The Jacket
() Kung Fu Hustle
() Shaolin Soccer
() Night Watch
(x) Monsters Inc.
(x) Titanic
() Monty Python and the Holy Grail
(x) Shaun Of the Dead
() Willard
Total so far: 85

() High Tension
() Club Dread
() Hulk
(x) Dawn Of the Dead
(x) Hook
() Chronicle Of Narnia The Lion the Witch and the Wardrobe
(x) 28 days later
() Orgazmo
() Phantasm
() Waterworld
Total so far: 88

(x) Kill Bill vol 1
(x) Kill Bill vol 2
() Mortal Kombat
() Wolf Creek
() Kingdom of Heaven
(x) The Hills Have Eyes
() I Spit on Your Grave aka the Day of the Woman
() The Last House on the Left
() Re-Animator
() Army of Darkness
Total so far: 91

(x) Star Wars Ep. I The Phantom Menace
() Star Wars Ep. II Attack of the Clones
()Star Wars Ep. III Revenge of the Sith
() Star Wars Ep. IV A New Hope
() Star Wars Ep. V The Empire Strikes Back
() Star Wars Ep. VI Return of the Jedi
() Ewoks Caravan Of Courage
() Ewoks The Battle For Endor
Total so far: 92

() The Matrix
() The Matrix Reloaded
() The Matrix Revolutions
() Animatrix
() Evil Dead
() Evil Dead 2
(x) Team America: World Police
() Red Dragon
(x) Silence of the Lambs
(x) Hannibal

TOTAL: 95

hmmmm........

It's way too hyped up. I hate the build up, grrrr fucking christmas!
Havig said that, I would like to wish you all a happy christas. Oh yeah, and have a great new year. x x x x

It's not a nice feeling to be accused of things you haven't done, so I feel rather shitty right now. Well, no more shitty than I've been feeling for the last few weeks. I'm so tired all the fucking time, so I'm moody and teary. I seriously find myself tearing up over the most trivial things at the moment, then I feel like a complete prat for doing that. I'm getting that horrible knotty feeling back in my chest, the one that makes me want to just cry and cry and go to sleep and never wake up. I haven't felt this shit since sometime last year, but now all I want to do is bury myself under the duvet and cry and scream it's just too shitty. I don't sleep it's like my body is too worried about everything to relax, the fact that so many people have shut me out recently has made be retreat to this confidenceless person I used to be, and I seriously don't want to be like that anymore. I've been trying recently to get myself feeling ok again, but nothing seems to work. Burrying myself in school work doesn't work either, because it's more stress and more pressure and I don't really think I'm strong enough to deal with all the shit. But my expect me to get really good grades, my Dad told me he expects me to get a*s. I told him I got an a* in my english coursework and he wont shut up, but then I tell him I got an a in my RS exam and it's not really good enough. I guess he'd rather concentrate on his new girlfriend. I feel lke such a fucking faliure and a fucking disappointment, I hate things!!!!